Tomorrow.

I'm not sure if I believe that everything happens for a reason. The world is full of tragedy and it doesn't seem fair or right to say that it has all happened for a reason.

There are some things though that are meant to teach us something. The problem with that is that we may miss the lesson and nothing changes. Life goes on and the pain that was experienced was in vain because the world remains the same.

This is true in a global sense and in a completely trivial sense.

It's terrifying to rest somewhere and feel the world melt away. It's terrifying to open your heart up and let your world be visible to another human being because there is always a risk in that. There is always a chance they will walk away, there is a chance things will stay exactly the same and the world will be left untouched by the love that you shared. There is a chance though that life will be still for a moment. The merry-go-round will come to a pause and you will stand in life, watching the chaos around you, and you will feel every inch of who you are. There is a chance you will look next to you and there will be someone standing with you in that same self-awareness. They will love the you that is far from perfect and is completely complicated. It's terrifying to let things fall into place, because there is always the chance that they will break apart again.

If we lived our lives in fear we would miss out on a whole hell of a lot. I wouldn't have this job, as mundane as it seems some days. I wouldn't be in NYC. I wouldn't be writing these words right in this moment. I would never be able to love.

Looking in the mirror is the hardest thing of all. But it is only after we are able to do it that we can truly love and be loved. It is only then that our lives make some sort of sense.

The world will keep spinning. There will be moments when we are all given a brief second to stand still. It may be alone, or it may be with someone else. All too often these moments are ignored or pushed aside. These are the defining moments of our lives though. It's when we are completely vulnerable to seeing the world around us that we are energized to reenter that world and keep going.

It may be terrifying. There may be risk involved. The only thing to do is believe in yourself and believe that with time lessons have been learned, and with time life has been altered. Change is a constant, and it's not always a bad thing.